Bloggish : The Life of Becky

I find it funny that no matter how hard I try to make my mother accept me, in the end it only makes us even more distant. I give up!

Finally saw Avatar. Was much better than I thought. Looks like James Cameron made a great come back. I so want to be a Naavi!!

Just when I thought about trying to be close to family, I hear what's been said behind my back. Screw family. Keep your drama, I don't want it.

Watched the first half of season 4 of Venture Bros (thanks to adult swim .com) Now I have to wait till summer 2010 for the other 8!

I was hoping that we could by pass snow this year and give it all to Denver. Sadly, the last 2 days have been full of snow!

Ever been sick with the cold, flu, etc andjust after you get better you get sick again? I am totally hating it!!

I think I should really pace myself on getting to work. It's only 2:45 ish and I got here @ 2:30. I don't start till 3. Fml!

I think the switch from tri cyclen lo to tri cyclen was a big mistake on my part. I'm nauseous more than ever! Having the flu doesn't help!!

Let's see after the millionth failure if this works.

Just one more day till the wedding and yes, I am already dreading it!!

I've never been one to go and enjoy big events with people, whether it is a family event or going out with my girl friends to clubs. I guess it makes me abnormal? I just like being a homebody ^_^

I never thought that reading through millions of friends entries could be so amusing!!

(on that note : I never realized how such a terrible friend I am!!)

Go me?

Eh, fuck it :)

I know you all forgive me right?

Me hope so ;)

Oh well...... not much to say...... be going now!!

(later this week : trying to survive the wedding!! Saturday July 18th @ 4:00 let's see if I can go in a church without setting it ablaze!!)

I got BANGS!!

After 11 years or so of losing contact, I found one of my old friends from elementary school!!

Andrae and I have known each other pretty much since I moved to Michigan (about 14 years) we were close in elementary school, even though she was a year younger than me.

I remember spending time hanging out with her at her grandparents' house down the road and going to Cedar Point one summer. We had a blast!!

After she moved to Fowlerville we lost touch. I'd see her step-mom Kim from time to time at Wal-Marty but that was pretty much it.

What got me to think about looking for her was when I saw Kim the other night at Wal-Mart. Talked about Andrae a bit. Found out she is doing well and has a 2 year old son. Wow has time changed!!

I decided to search for her via MySpace, Facebook etc etc. I didn't know how she would react. I was dreading that she would habor feelings of resentment towards me since I didn't keep in touch.

Now it looks like we got a lot of catching up to do.

To think that if the internet was not in existance, all the people I have lost touch and found again would probably still remain lost.

Kudos to connecting with old friends!!

Long time no post. Feels like it's been ages.

Nothing new with me. Same thing different day kinda routine going on : work, work, and more work. But I guess that's what's in line when I want to make money!! (not that I am complaining, making money is great) And it's finally paying off!! I actually have money in the savings account and have stuck to my new financial plan so far, so things are in the green in that department (for once!!)

Been thinking a lot about the future, school and lots of other misc. things. School is going back on hold for now. With how the economy is and the fact that I haven't been able to stick to just one major, I think it is best to wait. I could go take some basic classes if I want, but right now I think that wouldn't help any. Spending money when I don't know what direction I want to take doesn't seem logical to me. Yes, I know that when taking basics along the way you can figure out the major, but that defeats my whole college plan. I want to KNOW what I want to major in and be committed to stick with it first. I have plenty of time to go to school, so I am over feeling like I am wasting my life not going. I will go eventually.

It's just been so hard for me to just pick one thing and stick with it. I know that whatever I pick I will accel at it, it's just so hard to pick just one!! Right now with the shape of the economy and the loss of jobs, it's been making me think about what degrees will be left and needed.

I know the medical field will always be needed and in demand, but that's not me. I don't like the idea of working in a hospital. Too sad and depressing to me. Same with pharmacy. It is a stressful job and work environment and at times sad with all the sick people that I interact with. I know I'd be helping them, but I'd still be sad all the same. I tend to get over emotional at times, even at work. So medical is a no go.

I keeping thinking of interior or culinary, two things I've always loved. But interior is shot, since the architecture side is not in demand. Culinary is hit or miss.

So I am pretty much back at the drawing table, but that's ok. I have time. No rush.

George and I are doing great. Going on 4 years in October. I am so excited that he'll be meeting all my family in a few weeks at my sisters' wedding. Not many people have met him. I know he'll be all nervous, but it will be fun (at least I hope it will be) I'm not a big social event person. I tend to like to stay home and make other plans. That's just the type of person I am.

I figure that when I get married I won't even have a wedding. Just sign the documents at the court house and have a party or something. Weddings are not my thing, nor is marriage. I think both are entirely overrated. So you're married? Marriage doesn't mean what it use to. I see in the news married men cheating on their wives. How is it special when there is so much of that going on? If we ever get married, it will be at least after we've been together for 10 years. I have no problem with that.

We've joked about marriage before, but after thinking about it, it wouldn't change anything. We'd still be just as committed as we are now. The requirements still stand. If we are to get married we first need to have : completed or nearly completed college, have good paying jobs, debt managed, a house. Always seemed impossible to me, but after the talks we've had and now that I am saving money, it seems possible.

I have never known anyone else who has ever made me as happy as he has. He is always there for me when I need him and I try my best to be there for him.

Dad keeps joking with me that I am next to get married. Of course he already knows about the requirements, which he finds to be very adult and responsible of us. He really likes George a lot (which is such a relief) and he gets along with him for the most part. I know I don't need my parents' approval of the man I marry, but it makes things a lot easier that they like George.

I feel very lucky to have such a great guy. I know at times I don't deserve him since I do sometimes treat him badly, but he is mine, as I am his.

Pretty much, we are stuck together. Tighter than glue LOL But I don't mind. I guess in more ways than one we are stuck (not in a bad way) We recently just switched cell phone service carriers (I'm still in the process of canceling T-Mobile, the phones will be here on Tuesday) Switched to Verizon (which is a major plus!!) I can finally accept and make calls at home!! (will send out new # when I get my phone)

So things are on a more positive note for a change!! Even for Dad. After being unemployed for a year, looks like he has another job offer. NTI in Cleveland is looking for a quality manager. He sent his questionaire to the manager while I was at the house today. I hope he gets the job. He has been going crazy being jobless (so has mom!!)

Final ending thoughts : things can always get better ^_^

Even though I am an Atheist, I do believe in Reincarnation (or the possibility of it being real)

I am not certain if one could remember all their past lives. I believe I must have been a Japanese woman or lived in Japan in one of my past lives (since I am very obsessed with Japan) But it has to tell what really happened in those past lives.

In my next life, I hope to be surprised.

Maybe this time I get to be an animal?

Of all the guys I have ever met, he is one of the strangest and most confusing.

Why I started talking to him again, I have no clue. I guess we had fun back when we use to hang out before he got too cool?

I lose?

Pi is ddrfreakpi or Dave as some of us know him. We use to be a thing, a couple, friends? To be honest, that "relationship", or whatever it was, was probably the most confusing ever. After 3 years since we stopped talking, he comes back into my life like nothing happened. Suuuurrrre!!

Turns out the girl he dumped me for (Alise) dumped him. I have no clue why, he wouldn't get into with me, but it seems pretty interesting. Leave me for her, she leaves him, now he is back for me? Nice! I totally see where this is going.

Pi was never really "there" for me sort-to speak. Well, kinda hard to when we live about an hour and a half away from each other. Yeah, long distance stuff sucks. I totally recommend not doing it. That was the primary rift in our "relationship" that and he was in college, I didn't have my license and all that other shit we won't talk about.

I don't know, maybe it is my weakness coming back to me? Weakness = dorks, nerds, smart guys. Hee hee!!

So after talking with Pi, I began to get that feeling just like last time (3 years ago) I felt totally confused by his feelings. WTF? This is how you win over women? Nice. Jackass.

After much consideration, I did decide to be friends with him, even though I never really stay friends with exes, just doesn't work that way with me. But no, he wants so much to be friends. The reason, probably just so he can try to get in my pants? Well, George thinks so and so does Dad and a couple people I asked about it. Or maybe he does reallu want to be friends?

So right now, I am deciding over whether or not he is serious on just being friends. I hope that if he is that he understands that that is all it will ever be.

I still don't think this will work out, but I'll give him the benefit of the doubt (if he will talk to me!!)

Last time we talked I was really smashed on vodka and pucker shooters. I think I may have offended him by giving him TMI. Which totally surprises me since he is one of the biggest perverts I know!!

Maybe I fucked things up? I always do T_T

Wow.... where did 2008 go?

The oler I get the faster time goes by.

Such irony.

Not sure what will be in store for 2009, we'll see when it happens ^_^

I love adventure, so when the unexpected happens, it's an opportunity.

Merry Christmas from the Pagels Children ^_^

(this is what we do on X-Mas : we tie up our brother with ribbons and bows!!)

Lft-Rght : Shannon, Cherise, Amber, Me, Brian in center

Depends on how I feel normally. If I feel too sick to work (i.e. fever, throwing up, chills) then I will not go to work. If it is just a little cold or allergies, I'll go to work.

Yes & No.

Werewolves, no. Lunacy, possibly. True love, maybe.

I am sure if it the strain of the tides due to the full moon or what, but I tend to have my time of the month around full moons. I have heard a myth about on full moons that is when the most babies are born, but that may just be myth.

It would be interesting though if the phases of the moon had that big an impact on our behavior.

But definately for the lunatics (has luna in the word meaning "moon" in spanish, connection?)